Monday, November 26, 2007

New Habits

Sairah just went down for a nap, only God knows how long its really gonna be today lol. I have come to the conclusion thats he has a sixth sense, she nows when Im around in her sleep. Its eaitehr that or my bed squeaks too loud *sigh* she has been waking several times a night again, but Im still thankful its not like it was before. She seems to sleep fantastic, until I go to bed. Mind you, I dont make much n oise AT ALL, I go in there and get in bed and I move a couple of times to get comfy and thats it, no alter than 15 minutes later shes up. When DH does the same she doesnt care!?!? She can nap when he's in the room just fine, but when Im in there, nope, she wont sleep. So I think the night on my comfy bed are no longer going to be *sigh again* I think Im moving into the couch, but I just dont know how I will sleep that way ya know?? sucks so bad.


Moving on, I decided on a book to purchse it's called "get the sugar out", supposedly it has five star reviews from lots of people, Ive only heard good things about this book, so we shall see. I was looking and looking for a good place or a ood book to read about refined sugars and this one seems to be it! I know my problem is sugar, its not table sugar Im concerned about, its everything I eat. I know I eat too many carbs all of the time, but not all carbs are created equal, so I really would like a good resource to read from with good information. I dont want to get on a diet, I want to change the way I eat, and I want my family to eat the same way. every time Sairah has a puff I cringe, becaue I very well know its made with refined sugars, I dont want her to battle weight like I always have. i want this weigh issue over and I want to be able to wear nice clothes and sexy underwear ya know? So here's to a greta book, lets hope its as good as ive heard!
Im making a list today of the things I MUST get done, my house really needs me, but I spend way too much time online, and I know I should just turn off the computer but I CAN'T. so I leave it on and Im back on it within minutes. Or Sairah wants to nurse and I plop on the couch and lurke on forums..........then I never leave, again. So NO MORE. I really only need about an hour in the morning and an hour at night of being online to catch up on the forums. It takes me but a few minutes to check my email, so theres really no need to be on all day long. I notice lots of moms online ALL the time and I wonder who's taking care of their kiddos LOL. I know alot of people stay logged on (like I do) but in my situation, i KNOW it intefears with how I take care of Sairah and my home so I really need to get into this habit of just staying away from the computer as much as I can and just get on at night when im done with everything. I know a clean house makes my DH very ahppy and it wouldnt be so gosh darn hard if i didnt get sidetracked all the gosh darned time! lol. Theinternet can be evil at times, but then agin its invaluable most of the time.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

SO I can't Hang as you have noticed. It's hard to get into a habit of things, what can I say. So I decided to join Sparkpeople, but they wouldnt let me in because Im breastfeeding, so they suggested babyfit. Great another foum to take up my time LOL. I really need to get down to business with this weightloss stuff. Im tired of wearing crappy clothes and having husge cheeks.
On to better more cheerful things, We went to the park this past sunday, had a good time. It was getting dark already so I only got to take a few pics. Sairah got to ride on a public swing for the first time (I shudder at the thought of all the germs) I wiped it down with sanitizer like a mad woman. I know one day I'll have to just get over it. Dh went and played soccer with a starnger, since he was alone. It was nice to see him do something other than be infront of the computer, i wish wehad mutual friends so he could hang out with the guys and I would have more women to hang around with too, but its not easy to find friends when ur Dh is so busy and u only have one car.


anyhow, heres som epics of our day out:
On this first one she was about to try and taste a leaf, DH freaked out so he took the leaf away, and made her cry :( I also didnt get to take many pictures that way. On the swing picture, it was too dark to take naturla light pictures so I had to use flash, which made it look even darker. I hate flash.
























Thursday, October 25, 2007

So I haven't updated in forever, I have been meaning too, but I just didn't feel like it, if that makes any sense. Sh!ts gone down in my house, lots of drama, which has been coming and going quite a bit. I decided that alot of the problems are my fault, I just dont feel good about myself. Ive gained 60lbs since getting married and its taken a toll on my already crappy self esteem. I find myself picking at DH for very stupid reasons, just because I dont feel good about me. Murph from MM inspired me to get some funky stuff done to my hair. I think I let it grow too much and I just cant maintain such legthy hair right now. So I decided to go chop some of it off on Friday, (since my SIL gave me a giftcard to the place for our recent holiday)I'll relayer it so it will look good curly and I'll also add a big streak, I've always wanted a kool, white streak like storm from X-Men. I plan on wearing it straight for the most part. SO we shall see! Maybe, just maybe that will get me to feeling alittle better and perhaps give me the will power I need to lose some weight and take care of myself.


My little tater tot is 7 months old already. She began to crawl last week, now shes following me everywhere. I took some pics of her, and here is one of my favorites. The only thing about crawling I dont like, is the eating every crumb off teh floor part. I pick in her mouth every 10 minutes with something I never even saw. Its crazy how many times a day I have to vaccum and still she finds something to eat. It's SO funny though, how she acts like its the most delicious thing shes ever had and gets quite upset when I take it out lol.
I'm heading to bed, perhaps I'll update again tomorrow.

Friday, October 5, 2007

Blast



Well today Sairah decided to sleep in with mommy, we had yet another tough tough night, so when she got up at 8AM (afer going to bed at 5AM) I brought her to bed with me and she nursed to sleep, and I dozed off too. We woke up around noon, I figured I should let her catch up on her sleep because If we got up at 8 we were both going to be super unhappy all morning, and possibly all day. I think I looked just like homer, except with Sairah Latched on LOL!


Moving on. I see that the Samsung Blast is all over the internet now, theres adds everywhere. I feel so cool because thats the phone I have, and I got it before it "came out" I must say I just LOVE this phone, so much so, that I actually keep it n all day and night. HA HA! t-mobile owed me an upgrade, so I sold the old phone I had(which I never turned on cuz I hated it) and I bought this one for FREE! ha!
Notice the size comparison, its not lie! This really has got to be the koolest phone ever. I could use a way better camera, becasue at a whoping 1.3 megapixels, this camera takes pretty crappy pics. This phone makes texting a BREEZE, it has a learning curve, but over all way easier than ur regular phone, unless of course, you own a blackberry. they have the same kind of "keyboard". So you can actually get your email on this phone with no extra charges, but I cant seem to get my email addresses to log on the phone, I 'll keep trying though.
So Thats all the input I have for this phone so far, but if you are looking for a new phone, look into this one, its AWESOME.
marchmoms is down right now...........so I guess I should go clean the kitchen. BLAH.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Sleep is a great thing!






So I'm sitting here on my couch, infront of the TV, with my laptop.......on my lap lol. I just finished a cup of coffee, and I think I'm gonna go hit the shower. Guess where Sairah is?? Yes, you have that right, she is SLEEPING. She is in her crib taking a NAP. She is doing what babies should do best, catching some good ole' Z's. Now I don't know what to do with mysefl, I feel overwhelmed, I have so much to catch up on!
This picture, I just took right now, look how dang peaceful that baby looks!!



Yesterday our day went like this:

8:00 AM (on the dot) Sairah woke up for the day. She had some boob in bed with me, and we got up to play. I gave her some solids after an hour, then we played for 30 minutes, she had some more boob and I put her in her crib, she fussed for a few minutes and was out by 10:15AM. She took a THREE hour nap, and so did I!!
she woke up at 1:30 ish and she had some mama milk, we played and hung out for 2 hours and she had some more mam milk (she likes BF alot lol) and she went down almost without a fuss and slept for 2 hours.
she woke up around 6PM and she ate again, we played, and she had solids, a nice massage, a bubble bath and some mama milk.

I put her in her crib at 8:00 PM and she was out by 8:10 she did fuss for almost the 10 minutes but she wasnt screaming or anything so I let her be. she did have several wakings between then and 12 AM, but I left her alone and she went back to sleep every time she woke up. Mind you, I was watching her every move on the video monitor..... I dont think I could handle this without watching her.

So at 12AM I got her becasue she woke up crying pretty loud, so I figured she must be hungry, she had both breasts and I put her back down, she wasnt happy at ALL...... SO I stood there with her patted her back, and then I just sat on my bed, which is next to her crib. I knew she would be more upset becasue I was there, but I wasnt about to leave her alone, it's too heart breaking. She was out withing 20 minutes. She whimpered like an hour after that, but she got her paci herself and fell back to sleep.
Mama went to bed at 2:40 AM and slept all the way till 8AM without any wakings!! Needless to say, I feel human again! and my little girl seemed so much happier in the morning! her black circles under her eyes are improving, she is looking GREAT!

Let me show you what my house is like, so you can see just how bad things are..........
















This is my Living room. Thats her co-sleeper I just took out to put her crib in. I know the place isnt decorated.......again lack of TIME. The picture doesnt look so bad, but that fish bowl hasnt been changed in 2 months, the poor littleguy must feel abandoned. and also you have to remember that I have a small place, its an apartment so little mess looks HUGE. Oh and you cant see all the crubss and that rug. YUCK.





















This here, is my dining room...........Im just to embarassed to show my kitchen and bathrooms.
But this just shows that something had to give, and it did, and I just hope this lasts!
Well Im off to hit the shower! I stink and my haris is crusty form the moose I put in there 2 days ago.

Sunday, September 30, 2007

My 1st post

Well, It's official, I cought on to the blogging trend............ABOUT TIME!! Meh..... I'm just way to lazy and sleep deprived to be honest. I'm doing this now because my little one is asleep. YES ASLEEP you read that right!! We had to resort to some modified CIO, last night , and it was HORRIBLE, but It had to be done. I'm not a CIO advocate by any means, but no one in this house was getting sleep, including the baby. I hate the fact that I have to defend as to WHY I did it, I just have this guilt because all this time I swore up and down I would never ever do such a thing. Anyhow, at this point in time, I dont feel like explaining, Im so tired..........the couple of hours I did get of sleep, was on the floor becasue I didnt wanna open the door and wake her up. I'm so stinking miserable, You should see my house, then just maybe you would understand my frustration with this no sleeping business. Never judge a man unless you have walked a mile in his shoes, is all I have to say. My dad is on his way and bringing some WD40 for the door so it wont squeak, therefore I wont have to sleep on the dang floor.

You are probably wondering how I got my blog title........... when I was 17 I joined a site called thedilly.com and I couldn't come up with a screen name so I resorted to a band name generator LOL. In the end I grew on to the name and use it for several things, I like it.

Alright, Dad's here for a visit.........I'm liking this blog stuff.......its theraputic! I can see why its addicting for some.